Lördag = spelkväll
Ikväll blire spel med flickorna men innan dess ska jag hinna med att göra lite läxor och ta en promenad. I onsdags var jag iväg på ett berättarcafe som min skrivarlärare tipsat om, hon var oxå där och jag hade dragit med mig Erica och Robert. Det var sååå otroligt roligt, härliga historier för att inte tala om dem som berättade de.
Helt fantastiskt, jag och Marie(lärare) tänker starta upp nått liknande på skolan.
Fick tillbaka Hi provet och hade G så jag är väldigt nöjd...MEN sen fick vi tillbaka omdömena från våra gigantiska uppsatser som vi slitit med och det var mindre kul, som dom flesta andra i klassen så fick jag G efter omarbetning vilket egentligen inte är ett G utan ett IG. Det gjorde mig inte SÅ arg, kan ta det men det jag inte kan ta är att en i klassen vars uppsats knappt var utredande och var ett jävla kaos, grymt dåligt fick samma omdöme som jag.
Lite arg över det!!! Fattar verkligen inte, dom får ju inte ge några pitypoints, så hur kan han ha samma som jag och de andra i klassen??
I onsdags kväll gick mina glasögon sönder så nu går jag utan och har lite smått ont i huvudet hela tiden, ska låna tejp av nån så jag kan laga dem lite, som att inte det va nog så upptäckte jag igår att vårt kylskåp är trasigt...precis när jag lagade mat så fick ju ställa mig och ringa till Sussie och sen till mina grannar och sen till andra internatet och kolla om jag och Anna och Tanya fick förvara lite saker hos dem. Tog en timme innan jag kunde äta min mat och då hade makaronerna svällt och blivit vattniga, smakade inge gott:(
Idag regnar det, blött,blött blött....men nästan all snö är borta vilket är väldigt skönt!!
Nu kan man söka till högskolan, ännu en sak som ska göras.
Nu blire Solsidan och se om nån kan släppa in mig i köket så jag kan få lite mjölk i mitt kaffe.
"He who has a why to live can bear almost any how." / Friedrich Nietzsche
Long time coming
Vad har då hänt?..en väldig massa!
Jag pluggar som bara den, tiden räcker inte riktigt till...inte pengarna heller för den delen men har anpassat mig som fattig student igen.
Idag har det varit SUPER väder, sol och värme, passade på att sitta ute en stund och läsa Kafkas Processen som jag har i läxa. Den är väldigt bra och väldigt förvirrande men som ni vet tycker jag ju som om det som e förvirrande;)
Det börjar som sagt äntligen bli vår och det är underbart fast det innebär också att det finns mindre tid att komma på vad jag ska göra efter skolan. I sommar blire såklart jobb(BLÄ) men efter det vill jag plugga igen. Har suttit och kollat lite och även rådfrågat min mentor Jimmy vad jag ska plugga och det blir nog språk och litteratur, det skulle vara sååå kul!
Fick en rolig nyhet idag, ikväll kommer en kille jag inte träffat på över 7år hit och hälsar på...ska bli gymt roligt och träffa han igen.
Snart ere dags för lov igen (v13) tyvärr så har jag inte råd att åka hem då men ska ju hem den 21april för 22 börjar FORUM!!!
Nu ska jag återgå till herr Kafka men ska försöka bli lite bättre på att blogga;)
"A book must be the ax for the frozen sea within us." /F. Kafka
Last week
This is pretty much whats been happening the last week.
On tuesday I went to town to buy a gift for the baptism n some Xmas gifts,
Then on wed me, Elin, Ida and Amanda went down to visite my sister n
mother in Handsjön. Had a great day and hope to do it again soon,
and that time play in the snow coz its snowing like crazy right now.
1st of advent and its all white!! Its great.
Then thursday to friday I was dogsitting for a friend, Tanja n Zelda soo
they are great dogs and I hope to dogsitt for them again.
Then yesterday me, mom and Holger went to Sollefteå for Emanuels
baptism and it was beautiful. He looks exactly like his big sister Emilia.
She has gotten so big, time goes by too fast.
Was so much fun seeing Madde again,hope to see her again soon.
"In the depth of winter I finally learned that there was in me an invicible summer"
/ Albert Camus
free at last, free at last
well now Iv got a week off then I only have 4nights then I start my holiday 12dec-4jan its gonna be sweet as hell!
So long time no blog well, my friend is doing better last I heard and Im getting a new tattoo on jan 29th soo excited bout that. Its gonna be my 8th one, Im addicted simple as that.
Finally the music video for "Handlake village" by Takida is out n my aunt is in it ( old lady with glasses)...totally cool I know! Its really a beautiful video, and Im even more proud to call that place my home now, coz when ur use to it u dont see how beautiful it really is.
Just got home from work a while ago and poured myself a vodka redbull, its good to be alive!
Well what else is new, I went down to stockholm to visite my lovely Julia or Siif I should say, me n her went out one night with her friends n desided that we should all take a cruise. but not as ourselves but our alter egos the old ladys so we all gott new names Im Barbroh and Julia is Siif and I dont remember all the other names but it was soo funny, dont get me wrong we r defenently going as them. I love Julia she is amazing!!
Next saturday Im going to my friend Maddes babys baptism, havent seen her little boy yet so Im soo excited and I havent seen her either in soooo long. So before that I have to get a present for Emanuel and then christmas gifts for all of them since she lives pretty far away so I can give them to her now and dont have to send them.
Oh cant belive I havent written that Im gonna be an aunt again, my sister Sara is having her 3rd child in april, they all think its a boy but Im sure its a girl dead sure!
Its gonna be soo awsome, Iv seen the first pic of it and SHE is beautiful, I can tell I know this shit by now.
Everybody is having babies all the time, my lovely Elin had her sencond girl exactly 2months ago.
HAPPY 2MONTH DAY IDA!!!
And one of the girls Im working with is having her first baby 20th of jan, if she has it on that date its a capricorn and then she is in for a workout!! But I miss you at work Jennie!!!
And a bunch of other people are having or have just had babies, thank god Im not one of those people that really want a kid coz they must be going MAD right now.
So Iv kicked in high gear on the studying of my driving licence (haha high gear didnt think about that) and its going ok, just wanna be done with it, still scared of driving but I guess I will just have to suck it up.
My darling Tea has finally got her own place with her sister n a friend, nice 4 her to get out of her parents house n to be by herself for a while. Congrats my better half I wish u all the serenty u so clarely need and Im keeping my fingers crossed that everything works out for ur Balder. Im comming to visite u soon.
Well I probably have a million and one more things to tell u but this is getting tooo long to read but I promise to get better at this bloging thing and instead write more often.
I leave u as I always do with a quote only difference today is that this quote is by yours truly.
"As I walk through mirrors I ponder the reality of reflactions" / S.E.G
hoping 4 the best
I have nothing to write, im just really worried about a friend of mine. But he can not die coz i wont allow it, buried too many and i wont do it again. Why does bad things happend to the best people?...the question everyone is asking themselves and no one can find an answere to it, hate it!!!
Its a good thing I work nights coz I cant sleep anyway. I do have one thing to ask all of you that are religious please put my friend in your prayers and hope for the best!!
"To himself everyone is immortal; he may know that he is going to die, but he can never know that he is dead."
/ Samuel Butler
where did all the joy go?
So finally off work, and all I feel is nothing. Really sick and tired of myself right now and I dont feel like
doing anything. Feel stupid and confused, just wanna go away and be someone else then who I am.
Sorry to be such a downer but I write what I feel and right now that is it.
Just gonne crawl up in my sofa and try and write a little on my story, we'll see how it goes.
Try and smile for me for my smile is gone for now.
"Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes." / Oscar Wilde
Off work..soon!!
Only have 1 night left then Im off work for 3weeks, sweet like chocolat!!! But I have a million things to do so its gonna be non stop action.
So I guess ur wondering where Iv been, since I havent written anything lately but I have no good reason I just havent had anything to write....or maybe I have but havent been up to it.
But on wed or thursday I will have a beer or to and spill my gut, so u just have to wait until then....whaahaa!!
At work right now so I have to go do something.
Til I write again take care and remember;
To live is so startling it leaves little time for anything else. /Emily Dickinson
Spring
Its funny what you can find yourself doing, like the other day when I was on my way home from work at about 7am and it had rained a little during the night, I found myself counting worms that had crawled up from the grass. but when I reached 20 and I wasnt even halfway home I stopped couting, dunno why I started but most of the things I do walking home from work is pretty weird. Then a day or two after this I found myself counting dead worms....weird!!
I guess Im just gripping on to every little symbol of spring that I see since I love this season. Today its windy and kinda gray but I can still enjoy the fact that where only 2weeks ago laid tons of snow there is now green grass.
Been working all weekend and I have a nasty cold but it will clear soon, this month Im almost only working weekends, a little bit more cash that way.
Just had an idea, I have to go buy some wine, me and the sis are all out....its a shame not having at least one bottle at home.
Have to go signe up for driving lessons, expensive but a must...
Is it ever a good idea to REALLY grow up, become an adult??..I dont think there is because most adults are unhappy and complicates life to much and if you stay a kid, atleast a little bit, I think one can be more happy.
Everyone is always asking you "do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?" I dont get why I would want one??.. as a single woman I love myself enough not to want anyone but my friends and family in my life, I have only myself to answere to and only myself to blame when something goes wrong. Dont get me wrong I think that relationships are great for other people but its just not my cup of tea.
I enjoy flirting an stuff but Im totally content with doing just that. I like it when someone is sleeping next to me but not for longer then a couple of nights then I want me big bed for myself...
The sad part is that so far I can get away with being single, people exept and understand it, but in a couple of years they will start to wonder what is wrong with that girl since she is still single, is she never gonna find a partner and start a family like "normal" people. And I can tell you now that NO IM NOT!!!!.... dont think me a freak, for I am already in a relationship with myself and Im loving it!!!
"Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you dont mind it doesnt matter" /Mark Twain
Forum!!
So drunk right now....but still writing...
So whats new, just came off 3nights n got 2 nights off now and then Im working 2night but after that Im off 4 1 week and Im gonna be drunk in spring forum in Vemdalen its gonna be wicked!!!!!!!!!!!!
Getting some blue contacts next week n hopefully I can wear them next weekend when Im gonna be f*cked outta my brain....cant wait its gonna be freaky!!!
Talking to Julia right now n thinking that I really love this girl, she is wonderfull n lovely!!!!
She is the smartest girl in my life n I grow for everytime I talk to her!!
Im missing all of my Saffas,Kiwis and Aussies...cant wait to get enough money to go travelling, but no matter what I will get to Oz n to Nz.
We are talking bout the unknown and its amazing no matter what any of you will think there is something out there...
Planing a trip to london and the Gen in august and I hope that Julia will come wif me.....?
would be great to go back wif Julia bcoz the first time I went back to london (after Dylan died) it was with Julia and I would love to be back in london and at the Gen again.... so sweet soooo many memories!!!!
Good luck wif the ghosts darl!!!!...loving on u sweets
Happy birthday to you....
Oh my god how fast a year goes by, little Amanda is turning 1 today and sadly Im not there to sing happy birthday but I will be soon... she is such a little freak, funny ,crazy and beautiful ( like her mum)..and in september she will have a little sister to play with...I really feel for you Elin, its gonna be nonstop action but I promise to help in any way I can.
right now Im down in handsjon with my sister and the weather has been crappy all weekend but more time to just sit and relax.
So my dad is turning 70yo and he is finally ready to move away from home, and its a good thing. but ha is only moving about 20km away but still a big step for him and me and the family are happy for him
blessed friendship
20 years me n Tea have been best friends, and im looking forward to the next 20 years.
girl we have so much to do and the rest of our lives to do it.
this is the best part of my life, she is my better half and without her i would be lost.
i couldnt start my blog without her on it so there u go.
took this pic on autumn Forum, best weekend last year..and here we go again in just 13 short days, its gonna be great and crazy.
Im gonna go call her now...
"Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies" /Aristotle
well well
do I go back and talk about what has been or what is to come..?...well well.
lets do a quick update, working nights now n enjoying it, have to get my driving license to keep my job so I guess its time to grow up in that sense, sharing a flat with my sister which reminds me I have to do the dishes...sux!
But on the plus side Forum is coming up soon and we all know what that means.....drinking n partying for 3days, afterskii n crazy drinking games.....so sweet!
some of you might be wondering why my blog is in english and the simple answere is that I want all my friends to be able to read it, and most of my friends are down under so thats that.
well I better get started on those dishes but I'll be back soon to keep talking about nothing and everything..
see us soon
